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Things are slowly still falling in place. I finally was able to take off time from work, had the baby, been writing more and even found me a place that's in a small town about 14 miles away from my home town. Once again I am starting my life over from scratch. For the most part I feel happy and that scares me. Living my life full of pain and regrets its weird being happy. Sob2 is still giving me problems by keep threatening me to take me to court and to make my life a living hell. He is even trying to move back to my home town to make things harder and worse. He doesn't care if he hurts her in the process. Every time he talks I end up loathing him more. After a few years of dreaming of nothing my nightmares have returned however I keep dreaming of a certain place with each dream. I grew up at this place and hate it. Nothing good has ever come out of that place and anyone who has ever lived there has left it either dead or in complete misery. I wish I knew why I keep dreaming about it. My family and I are slowly drifting apart. This family member refuses to give up her vices that are killing her and harming everyone around. I am doing my best to keep it together. This weekend I am moving into my own place. I will be without internet for a while but thats ok I am hardly ever on this site anymore. I don't even really lurk in the shadows anymore. Usually I am on facebook or amazon. This site is just not the same for me. All the people i cared about who made it worth while are no longer here in some way shape or form.
I feel like everything in my life has changed completely and I no longer feel like my old self. Other than dealing with sob2 I am not filled with rage or sorrow. Now I am a published author who writes it all out in stories. I never thought I would see the day I no longer played in the sadows and protrayed my heart as a darkened lump. I may be forgotten but at least I am leaving behind a legacy of sorts.